For this Random Thursday I'm just connecting things in my head. They may or not be true or relevant to anyone but me.

As a painter I prefer abstract art over any other kind of art. For me, art is an easier way than words to get thoughts out of my head. It's also just fun. When I start a painting I don't have an extreme plan to exactly what it's going to be or look like because usually I never know what it might become until I'm mostly done with the painting. Even after, I might not have a clue what it, the painting, is. I just paint to paint usually.

As a musician however, I don't know what I am. The only thought in my head is to compose, to put some kind of picture in the listeners head maybe by the title of the piece or just by the first couple notes of music. I may not know exactly what notes to write down and play but I try to piece them together without not paying attention.

It's easier to paint without looking than it is to compose without looking unless I'm improving the instrument. Like the piano or guitar it is easy to improv. Probably because it is easy to use chords where as the clarinet if I tried improving it is more like a solo with nothing underneath it or with it. Also, it isn't that I'm making things without looking as if I'm not caring it is more like I'm letting my insides control what I'm playing. If that made any sense. :) It did in my head.

Since I am just rambling here this may or may not have proved how insane I am. :)

-The Clartist

Why don't you..

Why? Why do you never do stuff you want to do? That is my random ramble rant for the day. And when I said "you" I meant me. I have not been very true to the things that I love to do. I have not painted, played any of my instruments, or even talk to people I haven't seen in forever. FAIL. That's pretty much all I can think of to say. This is a short ramble of.. shortness..? For this I will now go add more paint to a painting I've been working on. Maybe? Yes. I will. That is all. :)

-The Clartist

Missing people..

It's so complicated yet so simple. You miss people. You miss people who are reeeaally far away. That's the simple part. You miss people. You can't help missing people. I've moved so many times that it's really hard not to miss people.
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The complicated part is that no matter how much you want to stop missing them you can't. You honestly can't. Yeah you can distract yourself from missing them but your mind slowly wonders back to missing people again..

The annoying part is that you HAVE to miss people. If you think about it you know you care about a person when you can't stop thinking about them and wish they were there right this minute.

I've written several poems about it but if you feel like it you can read this one.

http://poemsthoughtsemotions.blogspot.com/2010/03/while-i-miss-you-allaugust-25-2009.html

This pretty much sums up my ramble about missing people. I know missing people is tough.. especially when most of the people I miss are very far away but I'm glad I miss them because if I didn't how else would I remember them? And then think about all the awesomeness things that I've been through with all my friends.

That's pretty much it.. This post doesn't really prove my insanity.. it kind of proves that I'm slightly normal. :)

- The Clartist

Colors..

Colors are just light bouncing off an object into our eyes so that we see it for a color it is.. or something like that. *shrugs* I can never remember..

But I do know that when you add colors together you get different colors that can be really pretty or look like something you'd want to avoid. Red + Yellow = Orange, Yellow + Blue = Green, and Blue + Red = Violet(or purple..) are the basic math problems in color. You hear them a zillion times in art class and if you don't care you never remember them. If you do care it's really neat.

Here I go.. I have to mention sunrises and sunsets if I'm talking about color. As you should know by know I <3 the sky. You can look at the sky, flowers, tree leaves, grass, and whatever else that gives off natural colors undistorted by people. Well.. distorted might not be what people do with color. I mean it more in the they make their own. But natural color, where everyone gets their idea of which colors to make, is even cooler.

If you get what I'm sayin'.. who knows.. but my point to this ramble is when someone tells you in life to stop and smell the roses.. you can smell them but you should look at them. Their colors. Pictures last longer than smells unless it's something really bad like garbage. So take a mental image of the colors you see. And just enjoy them.
Color makes the world go round.. well.. in my world it does. :)

- The Clartist

Does it bug you..

..when you watch a commercial and they are cleaning whatever the mess is and they wipe off only half of it?? I dunno why.. but it bugs me. I know they are only showing you how it gets it off but still! Oh well... I could just be crazy and this bugs only me. :)

- The Clartist

Composing..

Hm... composing. It's a weird topic that always blows my mind. How many people do you know that compose music? I don't know that many.. maybe a couple of people who will every so often but not a lot. I myself compose a lot.. I've composed at least 10 pieces.. You might be thinking, "why is she rambling about this?" or "Where is she going with this?" Well if I knew I wouldn't be rambling..

I think where I am trying to go with this is that I personally think composing is hard... and it always amazes me when I go on youtube and find awesome musicians who have put their originals on the internet. Some have only a couple but some have a TON and they keep putting new ones up.

Composing is kind of like DNA if you think about it.. Everyone's DNA is different, right? Not one is the same. Each piece is never exactly the same as any other..(well unless you try to copy but that isn't as fun.) So you have millions of original songs, pieces, or whatever you want to call them and everyone has their own way of expressing themselves in different types of pieces or "strands of DNA".

If you want to compare composing to other things.. it can also be like a painting! When you listen to music it sometimes puts pictures of things in your head.. or it can be more abstract and just put colors or shapes or even make you feel the emotion it is trying to show. Paintings are the same way.. although the way they are most alike is by the placing of the notes and colors. Each note is placed in a way that makes the music what it is and each brush stroke or splatter make up the painting. If a chunk of the notes were placed in a different order than it would sound different, right? And if some of the methods of painting were different or different colors were used it would change the way the painting over all looked, right?

Right.. so composing is like many things. Writing, painting,cooking, programing, and basically any other thing that involves taking little things and making the little things all together something bigger or complex..

Basically I'm just rambling about composing being like other things.. and I'm pretty sure this is true. It seems hard but I guess it isn't that hard. I mean the proses of composing can be a bit confusing if you can't figure out where to go with the next part or something.. but the over all product can be really neat.

I think all of this made sense... it did to me. I could just be insane though.. :)

-The Clartist

The sky...

So imagine the sunset.. with the ground covered in snow.. I was starting to get annoyed at this cold weather with its snow and ice.. but seriously. I went outside and the sky was blue with clouds starting to turn the colors of a sunset. And then not too long after that. Wow. It was the most beautiful color. A red, pink, purple color.. Just wow. That and the crisp winter air. Sheesh... I'm not even exaggerating. I'm failing to describe it because it was so AWESOME that you can't explain it with words.. I tried to take a picture but by the time I got my camera it had faded to a different color.. but wow.

I think that's part of the reason the sky is one of my favorite things.. Just think. The sky can be so amazing you can't even describe the actual beauty in words. Words are limited.. and what words can't say music says right? Well that's what I've heard.. but after that it has to be the sky. Whatever words can't describe.. and music can't say.. the sky shows.

It has to be. Even when the sky is gray.. and a storm is coming it still is fantastic.

I don't know what comes after the sky.. but whatever it is.. well.. I think "wow" is all I'll say when I figure that out!

I could just be insane and this makes no sense at all.. but oh well. :)

- The Clartist

The little things..

The little things... those things that people over look. The little sounds that they hear all the time in life but don't pay attention to and when they do hear it, it bugs them. Like a clock. If you have one in your room, house, or somewhere you go it is usually just drowned out. But when you do hear it you can't stop thinking about it and it starts to bug you. Kind of like when you think about swallowing or blinking. You can't remember if you swallowed. Or when to blink. And when you forget about it again you don't have to control it. It's weird..
Well when you sit and think about it there are so many little noises that you hear all the time but don't realize it. For me, when I think about them, I start tapping my foot to them and add other noises in my head. And if the noise has a steady tempo going then I can play music in my head to that tempo. Like something I've been practicing.. or randomly made up.
The other day I was humming the same "pitch" the water was making when it's running. It sure made cleaning dishes go faster!
Sometimes if you listen to the little noises you don't even have to make up a song. They magically flow together. Like rain. It's not really something normal people would consider a song but it can be. And when you hear the thunder and the dripping of the rain it sounds.. amazing. At least that's what I think..
The little things.. the little sounds that people neglect are really something incredible. You just have to pay attention and stop and listen for awhile. And if you don't believe me.. well. I guess I'm just insane. :)

-The Clartist